People who know me would hopefully call me Certain,Assertive, Adaptable,A Leader and down to earth, but on my less than good days I can be Arrogant, Confrontational, Cranky, demanding, Formidable, Grouchy and Grumpy. My mind is best at knowledge, Emotional Intelligence, Mechanical Intelligence, Visual Intelligence and Social Skills and at least good at Imagination, Manual Co-ordination, Mathematical Intelligence, Memory and Musical Intelligence. I tend to keep my feelings to myself. THE WAY I WORK: I prefer to work alone. I am quite likely to think I can do things better than other people. SOCIAL: Thinking about truly great friends, I probably have 2 or 3 of them. I enjoy seeing acquaintances and socializing is a part of life, but not a main focus. If you saw me at a party, I would probably be the one “working the room” , making conversation with large numbers of people. I tend to enjoy being by myself. It takes a long time to get to know the “real me”
THE WAY I LOOK AT THE WORLD: All things considered, I would say the world is neither getting better nor worse. I almost always feel like I am living life to its’ fullest. If I found out my best friends’ spouse or partner is cheating on them, I would probably not tell them. I’m inclined to give money to beggars. I’m a Dog Person If we met I would be early. If I could choose between having a mountain, a theory or a grand child named after me I would choose a Grandchild.
GENERAL INTEREST: Business, Food and Drink, Money and Investing, National News, Politics, Science and Technology and Gadgets, Music, Movies and Newspapers, Magazines. Concerts and Live Music, Stand up Comedy, Theater, and Arts. ACADEMIC INTEREST: Computer Science, Education, History and Journalism and Mass Communication. My other interest: Electronic Engineering
MY RELIGION SUMMERY: I consider myself somewhat religious. I definitely don’t belong to a specific religion I am agnostic. Outside of attending religious services I pray several times a day. I believe in the afterlife, a Creator, an eternal Soul, the Devil Heaven, Hell and Spiritual energy I definitely don’t believe in alien life, Darwinian evolution,ghost, fate, or destiny,Karma magic, reincarnation or past lives and telepathy or psychic powers.
MY POLITICAL SUMMERY: Generally speaking I think of my self as an Independent. I would describe my political views as foreign policy Dove, Non-Partisan, Progressive, Socially Liberal, Fiscally Conservative, Cynical, Patriotic, Moderate, Capitalist, Centrist, Individualist and Libertarian. I would say I strongly approve of the way President Obama is handling his Job as President. I would say I am not very politically active.
MY WORK LIFE SUMMARY: I am currently retired. I work in engineering, customer support and client care, Business, Consulting and Telecommunications. Specifically Entrepreneurship, Specifically IT Consulting, Customer Training, Computer Engineering, Internet-Based Telecom Services and Mobile and Wireless Telecom Services. I work for an organization with under 10 employees Where I’m a IT/ Computing Professional directly responsible for 6-10 people. I own my own IT Consulting Firm.
My Hobbies and Activities Summary: Buying and Selling online, Cooking, Listening to music, Surfing the Internet and Writing, Swimming. OUTINGS: Eating at restaurants, going to Concerts or to see Live music and going to festivals
MY ISSUES AND CONCERNS SUMMARY : The issues I care about most is Civil Liberties, Cost of Living, Education, Gun Control, Higher Education, Income inequality, Political Corruption, Racism, and the National Debt, Policy Makers in education should focus on improving the Public schools System we currently have. In general, I am in favor of fewer restrictions on the rights of individual to own and buy guns. Not everyone is cut out for a college education. We should be doing more to provide young people with vocational and career training. Colleges and Universities should focus on enriching minds of their students and not simply on career training. Racism against minorities is still a serious problem in our country. I believe that government policies have impeded the recovery from this recession, The government government should do more to safeguard our Civil Liberties, China will be a major threat to the United States in the 21st century and partisan politics and a lack of compromise are hurting America. I also believe that the disintergration of the traditional family values is a major problem for America and the Government should do more to regulate Wall street and that Political Corruption is worse today than at any other time in our history, the government has not done enough to provide the need of returning veterans, the government should increase the amount of Loans and Grants available to college students, the government should interfere less in the private lives of Americans the government has no business policing morality and corporations and interest groups have too much in fluence on the political process.
Often I have wanted to sit down and assess just where my life is now. I have a fragmented family, no Love in my life either from my wife or my kids. I have not cultivated any true friendships yet, as far as I can see, and have not really required either of these things, Love or friendship to get along with myself. “I was never Loved and had never Loved anyone in this life.” My spirit told me this on the edge of sleep one night some 6 months ago. Frankly, I wouldn’t know what Love is if it walked up to me and slapped me in the face. I don’t think I’m wired for this emotional upheaval. My father didn’t show me any love or that love was a necessary part of human existence, my immediate family showed no genuine love for me. So, I’m a human being devoid of the basic wiring required to Love and be Loved.
Where does that leave me…in despair because I do want to Love someone and be Loved by someone. I want genuine Love not the words of the mouth but the murmer of the Heart. That small squeak of the Heart which echoes throughout the universe. Love whispered in a Hurricane, Screamed over the roar of a brass band, yet heard in the Heart, echoed throughout the entire being.
Can I find this Love before I leave this existence? Should I even attempt to find what eludes 99% of humanity. Yes 99% of us get it wrong. I heard of a couple whom were married 65 years that died on the same day. That is what I’m talking about, Love eternal. The bond of Love so strong they could not live without each other. So they went to a higher plane together to continue their Love in eternity. I believe Love is truth. Love is eternal.
Kind of makes you wonder what each of you think about the subject since I have chosen to share my point of view with just you three…since you profess Love for me.
My daughter, My wife and my oldest friend.
Tonight my thoughts turned to my children. I have lived my life mostly alone because they are the children of their mothers. I knew that I would not be there for their mothers throughout their lives. I wanted them to be my representative in their mothers lives .I knew I couldn’t and wouldn’t stay with them. I’m too selfish and fickle to stay with one woman for long. I have come to accept this of myself. Some of us are destined to live alone and I’m one of those. I don’t trust enough. I have lived more lies than I can ever expect to undo. I have not been given one little bit of true Love in this life. I have always said I would like to know my children as adults, because I had nothing to contribute too their formative years. I have been too busy pursuing my own ventures in life,”Seek Knowledge that yee, may know Wisdom”. Have I acquired any wisdom? “One never knows, do one.” My children are quite brilliant, both girls are accomplished in their chosen fields. One the oldest has 3 degrees, the youngest is studying for her masters. My Son whom I have not seen since he was a child has told me that he was going to join the navy to become a seal. He has chosen a difficult path but one if fulfilled; I will be most proud of Him.
All my children are a reflection of myself and their mothers. I can say I chose them well. They possessed, beauty and brains. I have contributed 3 fine human being to Gods creation, It is my hope that they will live long and productive lives, that they will respect God and contribute to Humanity in a positive manner
How does a person completely devoid of Love, such as myself, answer the inquiry of his 20 year old daughters’ question. “What is required to be in Love? By being in Love, I mean romantic Love. Frankly, I don’t know what it is. As far as I know Love was never defined for me as an individual. My glands dicktated what I Loved or didn’t Love. So , for me to be asked “What is required to be in Love?” One of my nieces defined: She has a physical reaction as well as an emotional reaction. I understand their is a physical release of chemical in the brain which triggers an emotional response and therefore begins the roller coaster called Love.
I have been satisfied with the physical satisfaction of my banile being up to now, but I would like to fling myself into that roller coaster called Love. I want true Love, with the blindness of emotional fullness I have heard about from other whom exhibit the trait. Enough of the lip service served to me in the past-forgive my pun- a full and rich dose of truth is what is need to show me Love is not a myth fostered on us humans like a cruel joke, never to be achieved, only heard about or grasped without attaining. Will I have too wait for the almighty to obtain truth.
I’m saddened by the prospect of never attaining Love in this life. Did my spirit show me what the truth was for me. “You were never Loved and have not Loved anyone in your life.” Is this too be my fate, will I die never having anyone to Love me in Truth and never having Loved in truth?
I can’t answer my daughters’ question because I don’t know anything about the subject !
Did you know:
That you were devoid of LOVE
That you were never LOVED
That those whom were suppose to give you LOVE had none to give
That you have never LOVED anyone in your life
That you need to LOVE someone before you leave this life
That the LOVE of your children is called Storge’
That you are LOVED by God
He gave you LIFE
HE gave you intellect
He gave you discernment
He gave you Hope
He gave you foresite
He knew what He was doing
He does not make mistakes
He tells the Truth and only the truth
That GOD is LOVE
That the only LOVE GOD is capable of giving is agape
That God is almighty and will test you throughout your life
That you cannot fail his test
That he knows the end in the beginning
That ain’t nobody left here live yet
I hope this email finds you and your mom and dad in the best of spirits this sunday morning. I’m feeling well although confused by what transpired last night. I speak of the blessing of God and the conflict of the spirit.God blessed me to be saved from turmoil and strife of the streets. Now what he wants of me is a big question. Last night I was dozing and a thought crossed my mind which woke me up. I was not loved in this life and had never loved anyone. Three failed marriages was proof of this. Love with an motive other than LOVE is no love at all. I’m struggling with the human side of me which is known to me; all of my past loves were for motive. I would pray that I find Love in its pure form.”Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy,it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.” (1 corinthians 13-4-10)
I perceive that you are as much a minister as your father. I do not hesitate to ask you of this. I want and Love my wife, is this Love in pure form or Love tainted by human reason? Have I failed before I begin.
My human side say’s I have broken our relationship beyond repair; my spirit says to press forward failure is not an option. No human being can endure humiliation, lying and rejection as I have had at the hand of this woman and say they still love her. But, I do. All the things Love is not, I’am.
Help me understand if you can what is going on with me. Is the spirit in some kind of conflict with my human side. I can say that I have never experienced this before. I know God is doing something in me, just what is the question. Right now I’m greatly confused. Usually I am decisive;Hi Unc,Daddy is not doing well today. More confusion, incontinence, cognitive / speech delays, heart dysrhythmias, etc. So Daddy has been moved to 6th floor cardiac in order to monitor his heart. Please pray and thank u for all the support.Luv u too and I will pray & ans ur email at another time.Sent from La La’s iPhoneGod’s Got U!!On Jan 8, 2012, at 11:08, “joseph h. caro” <firstname.lastname@example.org> wrote: